The Light and Life

WUZZUP BUD!?

I could not believe your pictures from the flood! Are your shoes ruined? That is nuts! It looks like you are in the eh uh..ol..ya know...G-HETTO! I know how it is to live in the hood, you can count on me to understand your situation. Last week infact I went over and played with my Mexican neighbors and raleigh. They all think he is so cute because he is white and bald. They always go..OHH where is his hair!? Its funny. But, my neighbors are so nice, I really like them. I try to speak Spanish to them but its tough. They speak way too fast. I also saw something really funny this week. The mormon missionaries were knocking doors at our complex and hot and their trails were the JW's. SO the mormons would knock a door and give their speech and next the JWs would knock and give their speech. I got a realy kick out of it. It also made me think of you though because that would be SO hard for me! I would not have the courage to do that. I know how rude and weird most of the people are who live here and it would be seriously nearly impossible for me to imagine trying to just teach them the gospel. ohh...toughy. Today was Christopher's brother, Tyers, Birthday. I made him a chocolate cheese cake with chocolate shredded on top with big puffs of whipcream all over it. It looked really cool and tasted SOO good. It was fun. He has had a tough life and made some poor decisions but he has a heart of gold. he is really kind. I picture the prodigal son being really similar to him. I read about Ammon, Aaron, Himni, Omner in the BOM this week. Man, talk about some baller missionaries. I love the story of the anti-nephi lehis. It is so powerful. It always makes me realize that miracles can happen every day. lately I have been feeling SOOOO blessed. I can't even descirbe it. My life is so rich and so full of happiness. Chris is such a good dad and husband. He takes really, really good care of me and Raleigh. He reminds me so much of you. Its funny that way. And raleigh is the HAPPIEST baby ever. He likes to climb inside the dishwasher and on the couch and rocking chairs, its hillarious. I also give him what I like to call a buckin bronco ride. I put him in our brown leather recliner and then a pump the foot rest h\up and down so the chair goes crazy and he laughs soooo hard. He likes to be scared a little bit. Like he will sit on Chris's shoulders and hold on to his hair and lean back untill he is about to fall and then he laughs and laughs. tonight he was rolling on the floor by us and putting his hole mouth on our faces and chomping down. He likes to wrestle and get rolled around and smashed and then he chews on you and pulls your hair. Its so much fun. We finished all of Christophers medical school applications this week. that was good. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted from off of our shoulders. Now we just have to sit and wait it out. Hopefully we will also find out his MCAT score soon. I'm nervous, but I feel like God has a plan for us which is true, he does. I dont know how to properly give thanks for all that I have been given. I just can't figure out why my life is so darn good. I know a lot of good mormons who's lives are not nearly as easy and lovely as mine. I feel like I have a lot of responsibility to give back to Gods other children and help them on their path back home. Kenz was here this week. It was really fun to watch Raleigh and Stillman play together. Plus I just love being with kenz she is really funny. I hate that she lives so far away now. I hope we all live really near by eachother when we grow up. barbie is due any day now. I'm excited for her...between you and me...that gal is UGE! I mean, wow, she makes a big baby. I have seen a little of people this week whos lives are a mess because they do not understand the plan of salvation or they have chosen to live contrary to what they know. It is so heartbreaking. I feel like sometimes you can see it in peoples eyes, they are void of the spirit and of life. You know how we each have the light of Christ? And how Christ is the light and the LIFE? WEll, sometimes people come here looking for an apartment and they have 0 light in their eyes, they look void of life like there is nothing left of their spirit but a hollow body. That is because the light of Christ has been smothered out and they have no LIFE (Christs love) in them. It is so sad to me. Today we were talking about the atonement in Sunday School and I held Raleigh in my arms while he slept and nearly started crying imagining having to sacrifice him on behalf of someone else. I couldn't do it. It would kil me. I love him more than I can even express, sometimes my heart feels like it is going to explode because I love him so much. But then, to imagine sacrificing him on behalf of someone else who wouldn't appreciate the sacrifice or recognize that he gave his life for them so that they could repent and then they chose to not repent but to ignore the fact that he had given EVERYTHING so they could live and find happineess. Now that would be a complete tragedy. And with so many of Gods children that is what happens. I can't imagine how this must break the fathers heart. I truly want to do everything in my power to make sure that in my case, the atonement is not taken for granted. that I repent and I live and have life and happiness and joy because the Savior sacrificed his all so that I could have all of these things. Isn't that a perfect plan? I sure think so, I know the church is true bud. I know your doing the right thing. I know God is SO grateful for you and your hard work and your innocence and kindness and bright spirit. DOn't get discouraged and don't be hard on yourself. Remember how much you are loved by EVERYONE and especially God. Have a good week, go out and tear it up!

xoxox, carbud and rals royce